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Being God

How does it feel?

I guess I’ll never know.

Does he know everything?

I guess I’ll never know.

Some say 

He created the universe 

Some say

He’s all powerful.

If he is, then

Why does he allow humans to suffer?

Why does he allow humans to destroy their abode?

Or does he want them to learn.

He has left messages for all of them

To survive, 

To live in peace.

But they don’t listen, this

I can say from experience. 

Some are smarter, they listen more

Some are dumber, they listen less

But no one listens completely. 

They will leave out things that don’t suit their fantasies. 

I know for sure because I have tried 

Telling them.

Telling them

Through examples 

Through history 

Through observations

I have tried living my life

Like them.

But they don’t learn,

They don’t listen.

How hard is it?

To not create problems for others?

To not steal from others?

To not rape others?

To not kill others? 

I didn’t need religion to tell me that

Why do they?

Why are they so weak

That they can’t accept their faults

And correct themselves?

Why do they need a god for 

Forgiveness?

What is the need to go to a heaven?

Lao Tzu correctly observed

Man wants what he cannot have.

Am I one of them?

Or am I on the way to become 

Someone they worship?

I guess I’ll never know.

This dream I had

Last night I had a dream

I dreamt of a place that I had dreamt before 

A place of calm and serenity 

A place that may or may not exist on earth 

A place so beautiful that mere words won’t suffice 

But still I try because I want to keep it in my heart 

A foolish task it may seem 

But still I try

As I try, I return back to its ice slopes 

Cold so severe that mere mortals could not survive but

I am no mere mortal am I?

That place seems to be my refuge in times of distress

My fortress of solitude 

In times of duress

I have been to that place before 

But only in my dreams

It’s desolate 

Difficult to reach as there are no roads

Lying between snow capped mountains 

It beckons to me

It’s not a valley nor is it a peak

A small piece of land

Covered in eternal snow

A cold piece of land that offers no sorrow

A land that allows me to see the world from far

Under the sun it shines like a vibrant star

I had never dreamt of a place so forlorn yet so vivid 

A place that befits only the divine 

Seems all the colours just fell into place

This view gives me so much solace

 A view filled with bliss with 

An environment so trying that

It makes a god out of a king

I can’t find enough words 

That would describe the beauty of this place but

I would surely visit if this place exists on

This Earth or the next

I feel so calm

I had always pegged me to be a loner

A loner who won’t ever find love

I couldn’t feel, I was merely alive

This was my life

I felt on the edge, always irritated 

I could never find peace

But I had hope

I had hope that one day I will find the one

I didn’t know when

When I started talking to you 

I never had an inkling where it would lead

It was a simple liking 

I didn’t know what it would grow into 

I didn’t know you were a godsend 

Till I kissed you 

I felt a sea of emotions churning inside me

I knew that day that my prayers were answered 

I knew I had found what I was looking for 

You are my sunshine

You are my salvation 

You bring smile on my face 

When everything feels sad

You give me hope

When the world grows dark

I feel alive because you are there

I can be the child I want to 

When you are there

I can be the crazy I want to

When you are there

I feel so calm

When you are there 

I feel complete 

Because you are there.

Love

Love isn’t a mystery 

Love isn’t about how many romantic songs you can remember 

While thinking of her

Love isn’t about how much you can spend on her

Love is when you can’t stay a moment 

Without her

Love is when you know your crazy fits with hers

Love is that sweet feeling when you see her

Love is when you want to see her every time you open your eyes 

Love is when your future feels complete with her

Love is when you know everything will be exciting with her

Love is when you know you want to grow old with her

You made me feel

I was broken

I was shattered 

Before you came along 

I believed I couldn’t feel

I believed I couldn’t love

Before you came along 

My life lacked colours 

It was in shades of grey 

Before you came along 

I despised touch 

Before you came along 

I had lost all hope

Then you came along 

I could not believe my luck

When I kissed your lips

It was gentle but

It created a storm inside me

A storm I had been waiting for so long 

A storm that quenched my thirst for love

When I looked into your eyes

It seemed I had found the one

The eyes of the one I had been looking for all my life 

I asked God 

Is it real?

Have I really found her?

I think he says yes

I had never expected to feel the touch

A touch so strong that I crave for it

A touch so strong that it melted my heart

I was afraid that I had turned to stone

But you proved me wrong

After all these years 

You made me feel

Getting my life 

I’ve known pain

More than most men can endure 

Still I get to know more

Is this the life I dreamed of?

I don’t think so

Is this the life I have to live?

It certainly seems so

I never felt the need to complain 

I don’t know why

Pain always seemed like a friend 

A friend who helps 

A friend who supports 

I never asked why me
Because I knew 

Pain was the true friend 

The friend who provides strength 

The friend who provides solace 

But is this how life is?

If yes, then why can’t I smile?

Why don’t I laugh?

Why do emotions elude me?

Yes, pain has made me 

Stronger, wiser, sharper

But for what? 

The pain doesn’t subside

The pain isn’t diminished 

It’s a never ending cycle.

Pain has made me

What I am today

But for what?

I don’t even know 

If I’ll ever know.

I’ve known pain 

More than most men will ever do

But for what?

I am yet to know.

If only I could cry

I sit here 

Thinking about our past days

The days when I used to make you happy 

The days when I used to be happy 

Gone are the days when I made you smile 

We forgot to together walk the mile

Somewhere between we lost our way

From the happiness we swayed

Now, I spend my days drinking 

But is this my life?

I sit thinking 

Maybe I was too strong for your taste 

Or maybe you were too weak for mine

What it was, it was not meant to be

But then why in my heart there a pain be?

I cry but the tears have dried up

The pain inside me builds up

The pain could subside

If only I could cry

When I had to leave you 

I was alone when you came to me

It was the pain that drew you close to me

I was happy that I had found someone 

Someone I could share my life with

Someone I could share my pain with

You tolerated my anger, my pain

I was happy that I found someone 

Someone who could tolerate my temper 

Someone who could provide me with peace

But it was not to be

I needed peace of mind

Not anger, nor temper

I needed patience 

Not annoyance, nor haste

You were to be my pillar of strength 

When I was down, when I was weak

You were to help me find light

When I saw nothing but darkness

You were to keep patience 

When I was speaking 

For all I wanted was you to be safe

But it was not to be

I see now

I was not meant to be happy

I was meant to be forlorn

I have to walk my path alone

Pain, the best friend of Life

They said life is about happiness

They said life is about being with family

They said pain is just a small part of life

Sitting with offering of Shiva in my hand

I realize they were all wrong

While trying to forget my pain

I realize pain is the best friend of life

Why go to hell when you have life

As the smoke filled my lungs
Shiva spoke in my head,

What is life without pain?
What is life without this hell?

Pain is the fire that purifies
Pain makes a man out of child

You enter life as an imbecile
You go into the fire and are reborn as a man

You worship me for who I am
But do you know
I am for the pain made me so

Pain is fearful
Pain is merciless

But never give up
For you are a warrior
You are the survivor.